Giving up

Giving up is the hardest thing to do this time. I realize that the more i linger in the memories of us being together, i end up feeling more sad. To be honest, i am nothing without her. I was nothing and still am nothing. Which was why i put her before everything else that was going on in my life. I guess now, things have changed. The only way for me to get over this relationship is, sad to say, to cut all ties with her.

That will be the hardest thing to achieve this coming year as every aspect and part of my life has her included. but by the looks of it. she has also found another.

First Post Again

This blog is a place for me to talk to myself. I cannot hold it in any longer. I constantly want the feeling of hugging her tight, spending time with her.

Today i said i am still going to wait for her and she says then you can wait long lo. That hurt me a lot. This type of emotion, feelings, hurt, can only come from her. But i feel that somehow or rather, i grow to love her more. Why is it like that? I seriously have no clue. I am finding it so hard to put on a straight face for her, pretend that I have accepted it but in actual fact i still cannot. The hurt inside of me has for now stopped increasing but the damage has already been done. Thinking of any girl besides her seems impossible.

Till now, after 2 weeks, i am still feeling hurt deep inside. From the day you said " I think we should break up " the person inside of me has changed.

She has swept me off my feet many times, and all i wish for Christmas is another chance to sweep her off hers.